The Legend of Maddie

 Yeah, I do read lj sometimes! My computer is still sucking with the whole uploading of pics and movies, but I don't have a lot of time left anyways.

Except for this!!!!!

1. Do you still talk with the first person you loved? Yes, I try to

2. Have you ever seen your best friend naked? YEAH, Lilly and I had awesome best-friend-sex all the time

3. Are you obsessed with someone? Gregory House, M.D.

4. What is the best thing about your job? Getting away from school

5. Do you like more than one person right now? As lovers, no

6. Name something that you would love to eat right now.  Oh, crap...........no! not crap! PEPPERMINT BARK!!mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

7. Did you get any compliments today? Not yet. And my dad made fun of me too :(

8. Where are you going on your next vacation? Hopefully Dan and I will be going to Disneyworld in May, after school gets out

9. When was the last time you kissed someone? The boy-last night. Family-today

10. Are most of your friends guys or girls? What few friends I have left are pretty half-and-half

11. Do you own any furniture from Ikea? LOL no

12. If you could pick the temperature of the outdoors for the rest of your life what would it be? 75, nice and warm

13. If you could have one super power what would it be? I'll be lame and say flight

14. Favorite song right now? Right now, uhhh.......probably "Moondance" by Van Morrison

15. Why is the sky blue? poop

16. Are you happy? Yeah, I'd say so ^.^

17. What's your favorite smell? Dan (lol) and chocolate

18. What is your least favorite sound? Idiot people talking 

19. Are you moody? yeah.....

20. Favorite movie of all time? holy crap.......Animated: Disney's "Sleeping Beauty". Live-action: "The Notebook"

21. Have you ever done anything hurtful to a classmate? oh hell yeah, in elementary school I would fight kids all the time lol

22. Have you ever gone to therapy? Just once. I'm pretty sure they thought I was too crazy to cure

23. Have you ever tried to get back with an ex? no, cause I don't have any

24. Have you ever toilet papered someone's house? haha no

25. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? Who honestly hasn't?

26. Have you ever gone camping? no, thank god

27. Are you friends with all your exes? again, none

28. Have you ever gone to a nude beach? yes, when I was really young. It was weird

29. Do you like your penmanship? yes?

30. Have you ever had a stalker? Lilly knows

31. Have you ever gone skinny dipping? no

32. Have you ever loved someone? Yes. Yes I have. Still do, in fact

33. Have you ever been betrayed by your best friend? I don't think so

34. Have you ever lied to your parents? oh yeah

35. Have you ever been out of the US? yeppers

36. Have you ever thrown up from working out? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA oh man, people do that?!?!

I think I deleted 37 by accident?

38. Have you ever gotten a bad haircut? yeah, when moms do your haircuts they never come out right, but you don't want to hurt her feelings so you don't say anything

40. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food places in one day? oh. my. god. gross!

41. Where is your brother right now? downstairs, watching "How the Grinch Stole Christmas"

42. Last place you kissed someone? Dan's house, my house

43. Name three things you did today: Went to yoga, went to class, had tea

44. Last person you text messaged? I don't text

45. Future kids' names? I like old family names, but if not, then old family names

46. What are you listening to? nothing right now

47. What do you smell like? my odorant

48. Any secrets? why should I tell you?

49. Do you have a chair in your room? just recently added

50. Is your family close? close to the parents, but not so close with the kids

51. What are you doing tomorrow? school, work, performance, Dan

52. Do you know anyone named Betsy? lol, no

53. What color is your mom's hair? light brown, slight grey

54. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid? yep

55. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? yes please

56. When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings? a few minutes ago

57. Do you play an instrument? Voice, little piano, little violin, even less guitar

58. Do you like fire? for warmth and fireworks

59. Are you allergic to anything? dust, grass sometimes

60. Last time you got drunk? Friday after thanksgivin 

61. Best friend(s)? Lilly, Dan

62. Do you love someone right now? uh, yeah

63. Do you miss someone? Beki kind of, Lilly definately cause she doesn't call me

64. Do they miss you? Beki maybe not lol, Lilly I hope so

65. Who is the favorite in your family? tha fav child? maybe me? my fav family member is my mom

67. Is anyone jealous of you? my sibs

68. When was the last time you got flowers? I don't know, our anniversary?

69. Where were you 2 hours ago? home

70. Where were you 4 hours ago? home lol

71. What does your hair look like right now? ponytail

72. Has anyone ever used you? maybe

73. Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend? yeah <3

74. What have you eaten today? granola bar, ring-dings, turkey soup, grilled cheese, chips
 
75. Is your hair naturally curly, straight, or nappy? what the hell is nappy? boring? if it's staight and boring, then yes

76. Who was the last person you were in the car with? Dan

77. What are you looking forward to? Van Morrison in concert, Xmas, end of semester

My internets don't seem to like me, because I'm having trouble logging into stuff and other stupid problems.

I can't post any pics, but I'll tell you about my birthday instead!

My family and I went out to Re-Ra's Pub in Providence. It was nice, cause I guess the owners took a little old run-down bar from Ireland and shipped it over here. It was nice.

The waitress came over and started to take our drink orders. My dad got a Guinness, and I said "I'll have a Guinness too!"

The waitress says "Ok!"

And nothing else.

My mom and dad look at her, and my dad says "Aren't you going to ask for her ID?"

And she says "Oh yeahhhhh.........."

Airhead. Anyway, the food was good and Irishy, and the beer was nice. Satisfying, knowing that now I can get it whenever I want to pay for it.
I got 3 books, a Patriots jersey, a Red Sox thermal, and gift cards to Circuit City.

My grandparents gave me a pearl necklace. I called to thank them, and it turns out that my grandfather gave that necklace to my grandmother on their wedding day. And it made me happy.

Casey gave me a little box that she painted on (which is super cute and holds my earrings) and Dan gave me lotsa stuff.
A dinner to Salvation Cafe with awesome spinach, a CD holder for my car, and the ultimate gift: a bra that will actually fit me.

The gift of support will never go unforgotten. <3

Pics are failing something awful. I'm even having problems logging into stuff, so it's probably one of those cookie things. But maybe someday I'll steal Dan's computer long enough to post them.

But I am 21 today. And I am so happy! 

Sometimes I wonder if I can function in a working world. I go to work, and I go to school, and I hate it. I think about it all the time, probably so much that it's unhealthy. I don't think about suicide (hell no, I love my life), I think about the future I'm setting myself up for.

 I've known almost all my life that I was not cut out for the working, business world. I just had this feeling, like everyone else had this...I don't know, ability...to succeed in that kind of environment. I just thought I wasn't motivated enough, but even in middle school it seemed the harder I tried to get good grades, the less I cared. 

In high school, this feeling was supported by the fact that when I didn't try, I didn't feel bad. It seemed to be a huge waste of time, this "do-good-in-school-to-get-into-college" deal. I didn't know what to do in college. 

The only thing I did know was my body. I felt deep down that I have a huge capacity for love, and most of you know that. I put up with a lot of crap from my siblings, because I can't find the heart to be mean to them. And when they have a serious problem, they'll often come to me. I even got upset when my brother didn't like a dinner I made one night.

I like to think that it's been in my genes to be a loving, compassionate mother. Many generations of stay-at home mothers and my body shape gave me justification for my lackluster school career. 

Also, my childhood has a lot to do with my feelings now. My mother stayed home, my father worked. That's how it has always been. I secretly wish that my husband will do that for me, and respect my wish to raise my children the right way.

I hate to think about giving my future babies away to day-care while I go to work all day. The way many parents 
raise their children nowadays makes me very scared. Children sreaming for thigns they don't deserve, parents having children because they don't want to use a condom, teenagers wearing and doing whatever they want. A parent's job is to make thier children the best people thy can. I don't want my babies being raised by someone else. 

I know many women do not want to have children, and that's ok. That's one less awful child mine will have to deal with. I also know many women who will tell me that women have evolved past the homemaker status, and that we can have any job men can have. 

I don't care. My calling in life, my one real purpose in life, is to be a mother. Nothing I seem to do or think manages to change my mind.

I thought I would break my non-updating spell with somehting good.

I have taken to yoga, and it is doing a very good job of keeping me sane. Dan can only do so much, you know?

And it is exactly one month until my 21st birthday. ^.^ 

First, I shall indulge you on the few pictures of us in London from my digital camera.


And now, the cutest puppy in the world!

London was fun. Dan and I are back now, but I have a lot of suitcase cleaning to do, so I shall update with some of the stuff we did and the few pictures I took. 

But that was because my batteries died on the  first day we got there, and I didn't get to buy some more until the last day we were there. -_-